"Hal apakah yang menjadi sangat inspirasi bagi Anda?"
Beliau lantas menjelaskan, itu dapat berupa apa saja, buku, novel, apapun itu. Do oooh, PR banget nich! Semua hal bisa jadi inspirasi buat saya, tapi kalau disuruh membuktikan? lha hal-hal yang menginspirasi itu termanifestasi dalam diri dan perilaku saya sehari-hari. Sebagai contoh, liat postingan di facebook soal riba, langsung kartu kredit saya close dan gunting-gunting sampe abis. Liat kakek-kakek masih jualan, langsung hati ini mewek dan teringat ayah yang berpanas-panas di sawah (dulu si, kalau sekarang ngurusin kebun depan rumah), liat berita perempuan diinjek-injek atau korban KDRT langsung pengin jadi perempuan tangguh, dan masih banyak inspirasi-inspirasi lainnya. Jadi apa donk buktinya? Haha...nggak punya pikiran lain, kecuali mau nyodorin bodi ini jadi bukti pribadi yang sudah terinspirasi. Nyahahaha lebhay ya. Ya abis nggak bisa mikir yang lainnya juga. Plus males kalau musti bawa buku tebel, lagian nggak begitu kutu buku lagi sekarang. Eh, tapi tepatnya si minder karena pas di briefing itu ditanyain udah baca buku ini itu, boro-boro baca, denger aja belom pernah (kuper banget ya gw -_-"). Eh jadi inget, ada satu buku tetralogi Buru nya Pramoedya Ananta Toer belum dibalikin nich sama Bagas! Balikin pleaaseee...buku langka!
Singkat cerita, akhirnya tibalah saat diklat, dan tataaaaa....NGGAK DITANYAIN SOAL PRnya! hahaha lupa kali ya belio. Padahal nich ya, sebelumnya udah deg-degan banget kalau ditanyain soal buku yang menginspirasi, secara saya dong dong dong kalau soal buku. Kecuali buku tabungan (eh tapi ini juga udah lama nggak cetak). Fufufufufu kecewa donk saya.... hihi Karena sebenarnya nich, semalem dapet inspirasi! Entah kenapa tiba-tiba saya ingat salah satu hal yang sangat-sangat membuat tawa dan senyum saya lebar-selebar2nya! mirip pas saya terima pengumuman kelulusan master saya. So here we go to the stories..sedikit flash back ya..
Coming to my returned to Indonesia, I spent the last day in Aachen with my beloved best friend, Franziska (and with the sweetest lady, Bu Carla). I called Franziska with Sissy, sometimes "my Sissy girl" sounds more funny hahaha. We have been on a friendship during my master time, and getting closer after Christmas, when we had the same exams. So many laugh and stories that we shared. Sadness, happiness, encouraging each other, and hug! Oh dear, now I miss you. Then, when i was leaving Aachen to back to Maastricht, she gave me an envelope. A super sweet things! but, she said that I was only allowed open it when i got home! Even though, i was so curious with the letter, I kept my words to not open the letter until i got home, in Jakarta!
Then, Jakarta...
The envelope contained a letter, photos, and some origamies. That's really sweet! The photo reminded me about a time when I saw and felt snow for the first time, having our first fun chit chat at computer room, a lovely tiny Christmas that she gave me, and an international night where she pretended to be an international student from Belgium-German (well, Belgium indeed a country but not so called that international in Maastricht, because they are neighbourhood hahaha).
Then, I opened the letter, and stucked to the FIRST POWERFUL SENTENCE...
Singkat cerita, akhirnya tibalah saat diklat, dan tataaaaa....NGGAK DITANYAIN SOAL PRnya! hahaha lupa kali ya belio. Padahal nich ya, sebelumnya udah deg-degan banget kalau ditanyain soal buku yang menginspirasi, secara saya dong dong dong kalau soal buku. Kecuali buku tabungan (eh tapi ini juga udah lama nggak cetak). Fufufufufu kecewa donk saya.... hihi Karena sebenarnya nich, semalem dapet inspirasi! Entah kenapa tiba-tiba saya ingat salah satu hal yang sangat-sangat membuat tawa dan senyum saya lebar-selebar2nya! mirip pas saya terima pengumuman kelulusan master saya. So here we go to the stories..sedikit flash back ya..
Coming to my returned to Indonesia, I spent the last day in Aachen with my beloved best friend, Franziska (and with the sweetest lady, Bu Carla). I called Franziska with Sissy, sometimes "my Sissy girl" sounds more funny hahaha. We have been on a friendship during my master time, and getting closer after Christmas, when we had the same exams. So many laugh and stories that we shared. Sadness, happiness, encouraging each other, and hug! Oh dear, now I miss you. Then, when i was leaving Aachen to back to Maastricht, she gave me an envelope. A super sweet things! but, she said that I was only allowed open it when i got home! Even though, i was so curious with the letter, I kept my words to not open the letter until i got home, in Jakarta!
Then, Jakarta...
The envelope contained a letter, photos, and some origamies. That's really sweet! The photo reminded me about a time when I saw and felt snow for the first time, having our first fun chit chat at computer room, a lovely tiny Christmas that she gave me, and an international night where she pretended to be an international student from Belgium-German (well, Belgium indeed a country but not so called that international in Maastricht, because they are neighbourhood hahaha).
Then, I opened the letter, and stucked to the FIRST POWERFUL SENTENCE...
"Thank you for being you!"
No word came out from my mouth..for a few seconds...but suddenly my heart became sooo warm! That was the first time ever in my life a friend said thank you for me being my self! Then, I read the whole letter. In short, she said that I inspired her to be brave and enjoy the life. My tears just dropped..Did I? Was I? What did I do so that she said that? I miss her so much, thank you! That was the sweetest things at the moment. The sentences was just felt so powerful!
So here is why for me it became a very powerful words, an inspiration..
Indeed! I believed, yes you have people you love most, but most of us (including me) complain more about them than appreciate what they have done. More people demand what we haven't achieved than support what we have and reach. But, somehow, this letter became such a reminder that sometimes what we need is just a courage and confidence for believing in other people. Believe that they just the way they are, not the way we want them to be.
Sometime we never thought if our saying may just makes someone feels worst or sad. We may think we care, but have you think that when s/he down because of you, would you able to stand and walk him/her again? I think there is a chance loosing trust to each other. I realized, that I wasn't that perfect friend for Sissy, but then I have a supersweet letter on me now. Sometimes, I just felt sorry that I couldn't help her when she needed me. Or, when I felt I should be able to do something better, but I still do nothing for her. Despite that, Still! not even a single negative word a.k.a complaints or critics about me written there, meanwhile western people known for their directness. The letter all were about appreciation about me, the way I am. Yes, I was very sensitive, worry to much if people say something bad about me. But, everything has changed. Those magical words turned my mind into a courage and confidence of being me, to believe in myself!
That was an inspiration for me, that positive words obviously give you more valuable things, than negative words! That sometimes we should and must more appreciate people of what they are meant to be! of course in positive things and way! Push more of their hope and dream, support them to be the better person they want. People just have own unique personality, which are different to each other. Thus, the best thing is appreciate and gratitude more... that God sents you a lot of people to make you a better human being! Sometimes, you should put your feet on other shoes :)
Then, about the origamies...she said also that I was allowed open one of them only when I sad! I didn't have any idea, why only when I sad, and why origame, what was in it? But, counting the days...The unbelievable thing then happen. Everytime I feel sad, I think a thousand times not to open the origamies, because I always ask my self everytime I getting sad, "Am I that sad? Am I really sad so now I can open one? But, noo....I think I have more sad stories previously than now". Thus, always ended to the conclusion "I'm not that sad"! Guess what?! I have my courage, my spirit, and my cheer back!!!
But yes, could not be denied, there was a moment when I felt sooo down and sad, that I didn't understand why and even couldn't think clearly. Then I picked an origami and opened it. It was written there, about courages. Suddenly, I regretted sooo much! Why was I feel sad enough so I allowed myself to open one origami at the moment? How that easy I surrender. Yes, I regreted it because I realized that I wasn't that sad! I remember I have through a bitter time once.
So true, the origamies that Sissy gave me have been a such strong reminder to through a problem that might comes in our life wisely. Not to give up easily, to stay brave and thoughtful about life! Like my Lord (Allah) says in Qooran: Laa Tahzan! Innallaaha ma'ana, means (Don't be sad, I'm with you!). Those are not just origamies! But inspiration,strength, friendship, keeping each other live and courageous! That God sent me through my dear best friend!
Dankeschὂn, my Sissy girl! You have given me not only a gift but the girl power! See you soon someday! I miss you so much! XOXO
*moral storynya singkat banget ya hahaha
So here is why for me it became a very powerful words, an inspiration..
Indeed! I believed, yes you have people you love most, but most of us (including me) complain more about them than appreciate what they have done. More people demand what we haven't achieved than support what we have and reach. But, somehow, this letter became such a reminder that sometimes what we need is just a courage and confidence for believing in other people. Believe that they just the way they are, not the way we want them to be.
Sometime we never thought if our saying may just makes someone feels worst or sad. We may think we care, but have you think that when s/he down because of you, would you able to stand and walk him/her again? I think there is a chance loosing trust to each other. I realized, that I wasn't that perfect friend for Sissy, but then I have a supersweet letter on me now. Sometimes, I just felt sorry that I couldn't help her when she needed me. Or, when I felt I should be able to do something better, but I still do nothing for her. Despite that, Still! not even a single negative word a.k.a complaints or critics about me written there, meanwhile western people known for their directness. The letter all were about appreciation about me, the way I am. Yes, I was very sensitive, worry to much if people say something bad about me. But, everything has changed. Those magical words turned my mind into a courage and confidence of being me, to believe in myself!
That was an inspiration for me, that positive words obviously give you more valuable things, than negative words! That sometimes we should and must more appreciate people of what they are meant to be! of course in positive things and way! Push more of their hope and dream, support them to be the better person they want. People just have own unique personality, which are different to each other. Thus, the best thing is appreciate and gratitude more... that God sents you a lot of people to make you a better human being! Sometimes, you should put your feet on other shoes :)
Then, about the origamies...she said also that I was allowed open one of them only when I sad! I didn't have any idea, why only when I sad, and why origame, what was in it? But, counting the days...The unbelievable thing then happen. Everytime I feel sad, I think a thousand times not to open the origamies, because I always ask my self everytime I getting sad, "Am I that sad? Am I really sad so now I can open one? But, noo....I think I have more sad stories previously than now". Thus, always ended to the conclusion "I'm not that sad"! Guess what?! I have my courage, my spirit, and my cheer back!!!
But yes, could not be denied, there was a moment when I felt sooo down and sad, that I didn't understand why and even couldn't think clearly. Then I picked an origami and opened it. It was written there, about courages. Suddenly, I regretted sooo much! Why was I feel sad enough so I allowed myself to open one origami at the moment? How that easy I surrender. Yes, I regreted it because I realized that I wasn't that sad! I remember I have through a bitter time once.
So true, the origamies that Sissy gave me have been a such strong reminder to through a problem that might comes in our life wisely. Not to give up easily, to stay brave and thoughtful about life! Like my Lord (Allah) says in Qooran: Laa Tahzan! Innallaaha ma'ana, means (Don't be sad, I'm with you!). Those are not just origamies! But inspiration,strength, friendship, keeping each other live and courageous! That God sent me through my dear best friend!
Dankeschὂn, my Sissy girl! You have given me not only a gift but the girl power! See you soon someday! I miss you so much! XOXO
*moral storynya singkat banget ya hahaha
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